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The War XXIII: Bad Place Alone

Tick tock, time's up... I have an army behind me and you have no one... these is the last moments before the final end game and you have no one... I prepared for everything you can throw against me.. in my darkest hour i may stand alone... but that's always where I have stood when it come's to everything, But i have support I always have, there is only one battle left to fight and that's the same battle I started fighting when this shit began three years ago... either stand with me, stand against me or stay away, there are only two truths in this life.. black and white... as to the final battle, moments await and I am ready to unleash hell and have every moment of the last fourteen years of my life dissected to the second.... i have no fear of the outcome.. I know that you are wrong, and soon your own actions will prove that, i just have to sit back and watch you destroy yourself and hope in the process that you don't destroy him.. as he is the only reason this broken man is still standing, still fighting.. stand standing against you, the government, the world... every game has an ending.. this is ours.. you only have minutes left.. enjoy them, because Tuesday will be Hell on earth, but not for me. prepare to burn. I'm not the one trapped in her own deception's.. I have faced the fire of hell for three and a half years and felt your fire for most of the last decade... there's is nothing you can say or do to me at this moment to destroy me further and having that knowledge make's me stronger... having that knowledge makes me know that there will be an ending.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: In My Darkest Hour, Megadeth

I'm protecting the innocent. If I step on a few toes in the meanwhile, so be it.

The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire.

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