You ball up your fist each time you hear about an unfound injustice in the world. That makes me your brother
We stood side by side each one fightin' for the other
We said until we died we'd always be blood brothers
The fact remains that you are one of my oldest and most solid friends that dates back well over a decade in that friendship, the more nostalgic I get regarding it I remember little things like sending a mick Foley book over seas to England so that you could have a nice day and the fact that every second of my personal pain you have had my back and been a person and place to vent to in my darkest of hours, I'm honored to be your friend, and know that in your dark places I'm there to be the same person and place for you, I have had and will continue to have no problem returning the favor. I just want better things for us both, our grand adventure has only strengthened things between us and it has made my life a little bearable, now when I am staring at the world in red rage or standing , staring at the blackness of the abyss I know that I am not alone and that as always thru the test of time you are standing at my side, it's a rare quality. You sir, were a welcome distraction and I'd be glad to be your guide anytime.
As much as I don't like to admit it this isn't a solitary battle and I do have friends and support and there are moments when the sun comes shining thru, I wish I could look upon those moments more and be happier than constantly being a nihilist and hating the world and being bitter, it's like I'm always waiting for the happiness to go away because that has been the story and agenda of my life, sometimes I need to be reminded that's not all that I have. There are people that care for me, there are people that have my back, there are people that are standing beside me throughout everything. The fact I found myself a little bit if myself again the last few months does not diminish the fact something is still missing, but it does validate the fact for brief moments there is more to me than this battle, when I walk up to a friends door just to chill and hang for an half hour to kill, that's what I need in my life, my friends, my support circle, the people I care about. The people I trust.I do have family and friends that matter and will be there thru thick and thin even thru all of this nonsense. I am not standing alone. the people around me both Close by and far away have proven their worth and have always standed by me in this time of darkness, and I am grateful for that, Hopefully soon that time of darkness is ending. Either way I know that most of you will have my back, and should I fall you'll be there to help this broken old soul of a man rebuild just by being there.
Current Mood: Determined, thankful
Current Music: Bruce Springsteen - Blood brothers
I stood upon a high place,
And saw, below, many devils
Running, leaping,
and carousing in sin.
One looked up, grinning,
And said, "Comrade! Brother
And if you're taking a walk through the garden of life
What do you think you'd expect you would see?
Just like a mirror reflecting the moves of your life
And in the river reflections of me
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