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Never Give Up, Never Give In...

I do know that for the sympathy of one living being, I would make peace with all. I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other.

Someday your pain will become the source of your strength. Face it. Brave it. You will make it.

Faith is about what you do. It's about aspiring to be better and nobler and kinder than you are. It's about making sacrifices for the good of others-- even when there's not going to be anyone telling you what a hero you are.

Have you ever felt despair? Absolute hopelessness? Have you ever stood in the darkness and known, deep in your heart, in your spirit, that it was never, ever going to get better? That something had been lost, forever, and that it wasn't coming back?

I have good things in my life, but I have risen from the ashes to have those things in my life... the one thing you have taken away is the one true piece of my heart, as long as that is missing I will never be fucking whole, I'm standing, but I'm not standing tall. I don't want to go home, it's nice to disappear into another life for extended periods and pretend that the darkness that permeate my life isn't at the forefront of my heart every day...the fact that some ties have become closer while others are either annihilated or on very frayed threads doesn't really bother me, you either stood with me when i fell or you didn't, or you came into my life after i had fallen and helped me rebuild. for the hanger's on or the so called freinds that feel to the wayside? that happens in my life... I'm used to it, it's no longer unexpected, you've gotta be a truly solid person to hang with me and not a flake, I live my life a quarter mile at a time, and in my battles i stand tall, I have always given nothing but my best, and if you are against me or even in my fucking way, you will receive no quarter.

When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching -- they are your family.

I am very difficult to kill. You should already know that.

This is the battle of my life and I hold no illusions that it may kill me one day, the one thing what's left of my soul cannot abide is the fuckign fact that he will grow up with your morals, your lack of ethics, you being the type of person that let a man covered in blood into your house rather than calling the fucking police, are you really that fucking pathetic? wait, let's not go there, we already know how sad of a person you were back when you still had a soul, a person that tried to destroy me in flame, that didn't exactly work, even in flame, even in darkness, i only burn hotter, stronger, I expect and embrace my role in hell, I'd rather be a demon, I'd rather be a devil, hell is a place I'm going to go for eternal vacation, it holds no surprises for me, it's expected.
If I'm to go down in flames you will be feel the burn, I'm taking you down with me.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Motley Crue,, Live Wire.

There's always, always a choice. My options might really, truly suck, but that doesn't mean there isn't a choice.

The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don’t always spoil the good things and make them unimportant. And we definitely added to his pile of good things.

Every villian is a hero in his own mind

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