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Murder....



I warred with her, but I was never her enemy.

It's getting close to the End, And recent revelations have shown you're true character and how poor of a person that you are...there was a time that I had fucking sympathy and a time you were a part of of my soul regardless how fucking much you've taught me to hate you, that time is over... I don't need to murder your soul it's already gone, you're just a living, breathing husk, And anything I do from this Moment on I do with no emotion for you and your Lifestyle I do for one Reason, the only reason that matters, that little boy... If I'm Going to hell In persuit of that goal, it's a forgone consulsion and I will become the demon you've always thought that I am, but I will do it for the sake of an angel, there used to be rules of engagement, there used to be a standard of Honor I held myself to, I Still have that, But you can't destroy the king in chess when the Queen has already been broken, And you've done that to yourself with your Actions, I've never had to do it for you, I've just watched you do it to yourself.. I don't need to murder your soul because you've done it yourself, You Deserve oblivion, Enjoy it.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: LACUNA COIL, I Forgive (But I Won't Forget Your Name)

I'm about to do it your way
I will make your world unsafe
I never thought you'd get this far

I've been around these vicious lies too
Too long to be neglecting the truth
I'm getting closer and I'm fully armed.


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