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Genisys

Ever notice how you come across somebody once in a while that you shouldn't have fucked with? That's me.

I'm not currently very fucking happy with this stage of my life, decisions are being made for me right in front of me without any input and very soon in a lot of ways I'm going to have to make some fucking choices that people aren't going to like to preserve my sanity and the things in my life that are of utmost importance to me, i keep smiling like nothings wrong basic on my principles but a man can't survive on his fucking principles alone, i don't mind sacrifice, but when it seems all that im fucking doing it's more than a little frustrating, having every choice questioned doesn't exactly comfort me as well... i just don't particularly care that in some aspects my needs, wants and responsibilties are being ignored while money is spent esp when it is my fucking money.... I'm on a limited fucking income and my bills come first... i don't want to owe money but when i see a deeper financial black hole growing, there comes a time when i walk away and stop caring... I'm getting to that fucking point.. it doesn't matter much how much i care and the connections i have made... I have a black soul and i have to take care of myself, there's no heart to heal here.... i will just feel bad for those i upset.. but certian things come first.. and i still have a battle to fight and war to win, anything detrimental to that and i'm gone.. and i'm getting to that fucking point.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Road to Nowhere, Ozzy

You're always going to be tearing away at yourself until you come to terms with what you are. Until you come full circle

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