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One Bad Day.........

The healthy man does not torture others - generally it is the tortured who turn into torturers.

The next month is not going to be an easy one as I have reconcile for myself that it's been five years since you started this war, the fact that this was over nothing more than me taking a few extra days on a holiday? It's March break, my son should be here, happy and hanging out and checking out his new toys. That's not how it is tho, is it? That's not the people we are anymore, maybe it's not the people that we ever were, but I know this, it's not over, not yet, not by a long shot. I may stare the past in the face every fucking day of my life, but that only serves to remind me, that my future, my child is out there....and I have not and will not abandon him. That's not how this works. You know what that outcome is going to be, there's a reason I gave you the only terms of surrender you are ever going to fucking get, it was a way out, if I'm going to sulk and brood for a few more months, I will make sure when I meet you on that bloody battle feild, I give you no quarter, i will respond in kind, you have destroyed me and him, you tore my soul and son away from me, Expect nothing less, I will destroy you.

Current Mood: Sad.

You will always be fond of me. I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.

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