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Patience


I have learned patience. I don't know where things are going. But I know where ever that they do that this is pure and that while there might be hurt and drama, this is something that is yours and mine. No one else matters.

That's what I think you need. We've waited long enough. I know that it's exactly what I need. There are just conditions on both sides but we can work thru them. All I know is that I can't stand not having you by my side.

We need to be a family agian. That's all I've ever wanted.

If nothing else we both have the closure we needed. But If it starts agian where it ended I'm good with that too. Thats all I need in my life.

I'm just sick of being so broken and I think I always will be without you.

This is the weird part. A moment with you fixed a lot of the hurt in my mind. And I think that it is because I do truly love you and you truly love me. I just wish we hadn't got lost along the way.

When I think about everyone that has fallen away from me in this life and yet somehow you're still here.... I know it's complicated... But you're still here and they are not. It counts for something.

I no longer have any doubts. I know where my true home is. I just have to figure out how to get back there.

Everything has changed... Now we have to figure out how to change with it.

I don't know where things are headed but I know in this moment I'm happier and I feel a lot more whole than I have in a long time...

I am just trying to figure my way out in the world, and for once, the first time in a long time. I feel like I might not be doing it alone.

You could have let me fade to the folds of time and memory, and there was a time I wanted you to do exactly that, to protect you and him, but I'm glad that you haven't forgotten me....

...and maybe the time is right for everything, we ever wanted.

I was always there for you, when you needed me. Standing here in the shadows, always wanting to be by your side.

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