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True Immortals


I don't know how we got here, but we got here. Somehow I've always known this was gonna be the case. I always knew that I would be the one at the end because I do love you more than anything. I just got lost along the way. I should have fought harder when I needed to rather than letting you be sad pretending that I knew you were happy. I will always be here to catch you when you're falling, and somehow you've always known.

I am done with others expectations of me, I only care what two people in this world think of me... I'm pretty sure at one point I was good enough for her... I hope I still am good enough for her... Because I don't want anyone else.

I know good or bad that we are always going to be in each other's lives and there is always going to be something missing until we fix this..... I just hope we can. I've lived too long without the great love of my life... I want it to work, whatever it ends up being.

I have something to tell you... But only after that first kiss....

The reason I didn't tell you I was still in love with you is because I didn't think I was good enough for you. I still don't think I am and every fight we have clarifies the fact that I am. I am trying that's the best I can do.


Either accept it and be a part of me or don't. It's all i can do.

Happy Thanksgiving, I really wish I was there with you... But it's not time for that, not yet.

We need to find each other first before we involve him.

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