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Carpe Diem Baby



Don't think for one fucking moment I won't cut you out of my life in a fucking second if I feel like I'm being deceived. My trust level is low. And while you both have reasons to be in my life, only one I will allow to keep coming back. But my heart can grow cold and stay cold there too.


Ten minutes, a day, a week, a year, ten years, twenty years, thirty years, it doesn't fucking matter. There is only one that I will allow to twist the knife and return and even at that I am losing fucking patience... I don't have the rest of my life to wait... and you're chaos doesn't get to affect my hard won peace, I have enough external battles to fight right now.


I don't give a fucking damn who the hell you are. If you play games I will fucking ghost you like you don't exist if you give me a goddamn reason and I will never ever look back. I hate everyone and everything and when a little light comes into my light, the minute anyone plays games, I'm gone.


I have better things to do and bigger concerns to deal with. I don't have time for anyone's bullshit.


Ever.

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