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Paid In Full



Whatever the hell we are, it's honest, I'll Give you that. There's no true drama anymore.


Except when you decide to create it. I can't tell when you're being honest with me or when you're being fake. You draw on all my fucking  emotions and expect me to be there to fucking  save you. I'm not that guy not anymore. You want to push me away forever. You're doing a great fucking job of.


Any debts to you are done. We are paid in full. I'm not here to be yours anymore. Maybe one day we will fucking figure it out or maybe one day this downward spiral we both claim will fucking end. Till then I'm just fine chasing my own destiny and taking care of my responsibilities. You're choices are you're own. They are not mine but this constant betrayal is nothing new. It's a very old and constant friend. I'm used to it, I'm used to it from you.


No illusions and no surprises there.


I worked my ass off today with the intention of doing an epic weekend holiday vacation in our hometown and erase some of the bad memories in each other's arms, but that was too much for you, that was too fucking intense for you. Thanks for the bucks then. I have other plans with my other ride or die friends.


Just because I know you'll be there at the end doesn't fucking mean I have to enjoy the ride. All scores are settled. I don't owe you a damn thing, not anymore. It's all paid in full. 


Fuck off until your ready, if ever. I'll see you then.

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