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Nostalgia Tour Part II





He remembers enough of his life to weep for what he has lost.


You left me, you betrayed me... constantly, I have nothing to apologize for and I have no reason to constantly look back, but I do anyways.... every time it fell apart it was you're actions not mine... you can always justify that I'm the bad guy and I'll even let you let me play the villain.... but you know in you're hart that's wrong.


It's always been wrong. Ever since this started. You made you're decision and almost broke me then, I know what I was buying on the weekend nineteen years ago. That fact has not escaped me at all. I know what all three of us lost over the years due to you're decision.


There was a time in my life that you were the most important thing in my life. I thought a while ago we might have been getting back to that... now, I'm just waiting for you to return and for the nostalgia tour to resume... because that's all it is....


... I do mean something to you, and you're as stuck in the past as I am. But this is the present and neither of us at this current moment have a role in the others reality.

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