Skip to main content

Pawns.

 




I am not a pawn agianst you’re chess game agianst some other idiot in you’re life. This is our life, we are not chess pieces in you’re live life’s game... and suddenly the grass is fucking greener on the other side.


The behaviours and drama begins to be circular. I am at peace. You need me in you’re life more than I need you in mine. But I am always the one you fall back in love with, so stop trying to fill whatever I left you missing with with dirtbags and be mine...


One day the chess board will shatter.., it’ll be over. One of us will be gone and the other will be wracked with regret.


The rules have fucking changed, we have reached another marker in how we treat each other, because I will no longer tolerate you’re bullshit. I have a plan of the way I will do things, and you either come along for the fucking ride or you stop getting off and on the bus ride we call each other’s lives, I’m fine without you btw, but I’m sick of being hurt when you want me to rescue you from scum that are lower than me on the totem pole, you need to make choices that are better for yourself and my son, you are fucking failing!!!!


Pushing and alienating me away again would be a bad choice. One day I will walk away and that will be it. You are lucky I made a fucking plan that covers years, but you are two years into that plan you don’t have much time left... One day my patience it just Stops. I know what day that will be, do you?

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.
Post a Comment
Read more

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number.  I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no lon...
Post a Comment
Read more

Serpent's Kiss.

I pass in and out of peoples lives. sometimes i wonder why they come back. sometimes i wonder if the issue is me. i do grand things and i back up my plans and words and maybe sometimes thats too much for some. but all i have ever asked from those that i love is honesty. i don't care if things fall apart. all i need is the truth.  I'm getting to the point i don't trust fucking anyone. and being betrayed by those that are at best fairweather fucking friends when im not exactly finacally fucking stable.  there are reasons i keep my circle small and those i truly trust even closer. it takes a lot to be a part of my life and and i am seriously considering withdrawing from some of my social activities again because it seems like the last couple years they just turn to shit and all i am doing is losing money. i have stopped caring about a lot of people in the past and it can be real fuckin easy for me to walk away from agian. id rather work on the relationships both old and new th...
Post a Comment
Read more