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Pawns.

 




I am not a pawn agianst you’re chess game agianst some other idiot in you’re life. This is our life, we are not chess pieces in you’re live life’s game... and suddenly the grass is fucking greener on the other side.


The behaviours and drama begins to be circular. I am at peace. You need me in you’re life more than I need you in mine. But I am always the one you fall back in love with, so stop trying to fill whatever I left you missing with with dirtbags and be mine...


One day the chess board will shatter.., it’ll be over. One of us will be gone and the other will be wracked with regret.


The rules have fucking changed, we have reached another marker in how we treat each other, because I will no longer tolerate you’re bullshit. I have a plan of the way I will do things, and you either come along for the fucking ride or you stop getting off and on the bus ride we call each other’s lives, I’m fine without you btw, but I’m sick of being hurt when you want me to rescue you from scum that are lower than me on the totem pole, you need to make choices that are better for yourself and my son, you are fucking failing!!!!


Pushing and alienating me away again would be a bad choice. One day I will walk away and that will be it. You are lucky I made a fucking plan that covers years, but you are two years into that plan you don’t have much time left... One day my patience it just Stops. I know what day that will be, do you?

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