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King of Fools.




You ever use the most important thing I have ever bought you to gain an advantage against some fucking loser you’re dating, never speak to me again. I’m sick of being a pawn in you’re fucking life. That totally pissed me off, it may be waiting but there are fucking conditions. None of which that you will ever fucking meet. I’m sure of that.


I have and will walk away from you, No fucks given. My broken heart healed a long time ago from the knife in my back and the only reason you get the patience that you do is because of our one blood tie and the shit that has happened in you’re and his life. You ruined me, I’ve come to live with that. But I have a pretty good fucking life without you, and honestly that I would only be moving sideways if we got back together. Why in fucking hell would I want that?


I refuse to be the hidden one in you’re life, you need to acknowledge my fucking importance or walk the fuck away. You wonder why I never fight for you.... it’s because you’ve never given me a fucking reason. 22 years I’d have died for you, but for 21 fucking years I’ve been a fucking afterthought. 


There are days I forgot that I had a life before I met you, but the fact is I did. And on the days I remeber it’s easier to look behind and remember how fiercely I defended my independence and lived life by my own Rules the same fucking way I do now. The difference is back then I had a future and all I have now is the past... you have made it this way that all my thoughts will be defined by you, I reject that like I always have. I may love you but there are days I don’t fucking like you... and you’re the mother of my child. It shouldn’t be like that ever.


Go play with you’re false king until he proves everything I’ve said right. I’ll still be here to catch you when you fucking fall, as always. Just don’t expect me to always be happy about it. 


It should be about our little prince.

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