Legendary II: Living large.

Without friends, no man would choose to live, though he had all other goods.

I live large and I live my dreams because it’s all I know how to fucking do. Everything else to me is fucking failure. I’m gonna go till I’m done and I’m going to have a damn good time doing it. I just wish you, my true Queen was beside me to do it. That’s all I am fucking missing.

I don’t need you in my life, I want you in my life. I tried to do a lot of big things involving you this summer leading up to something but it wasn’t ever good enough for you. Maybe next time. But I’m not sitting around waiting.

Not anymore. I have my freinds and I have my life. And it’s way better than whatever you consider your life. It’s sad you can’t figure yourself out but you cannot blame me for you’re failings. I’m gonna have fun and I’m going to live my life, without you. As I always have. You know what you’re missing. You know what you’ve taken away from us as a family.

But I have people in my life, people that fucking matter. That’s all I need.

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Cowabunga.

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Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

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