Return To Serenity.

I just want peace. For me. For you. For him. I think the easiest path is to that is together. But that’s you’re choice and you’re timeline. I don’t think you and I will ever find peace in anyone else’s arms. I think both of us know and understand that too. That’s why we fight this emotional feeling we have had since day one so hard. It shouldn’t still be here yet it is. Explain that. I can’t, I won’t. I just choose to believe in it. I don’t know why.

I think we romanticize both the good and bad parts, but that’s just it, thru all of it.. there was love. There still is. We both recognize that fact.

There is an emptiness. I do interesting things to fill it, but it’s still there it remains. It’s better when you are in my life, even on the fringes. I like where we are now. Whatever we are moving forward too. Even if it takes ages.

I just want my loved ones back. No more fighting no more arguments. Just peace between us and see where it goes. I’m making some grand gestures this summer. But if I wasn’t doing them with you and him I’d just be doing them with someone else and being empty.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Dying False King.

I am a ghost and a spectre in a lot of peoples lives that I have touched. Some I shouldn’t be, and some I have willingly walked away for my own mental health. I’m starting to get to that point with many things in my life agian. I thought it would be easier to live a simple life and just have fun but I think it’s harder than when I worked my face off as a father. At least then my enemies didn’t pretend to be my freinds and the world wasn’t falling apart slowly. Just my world. I think I prefer whatever that was then compared to what the world is now. I have my own life and adventures and I don’t need anyone that doesn’t want or need to be in my life. I have fun with what I do and don’t let negative sources affect my life. If you’re gonna drag me down, I’ll be gone. That’s how it works. You’re not going to disturb my fucking peace. That’s what the metal shows are for. That is anger’s release. Plus to have fun.

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