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Long live the King



The more I think about things the Angrier I get. And I know that I’m the good and noble one in this relationship. You have attempted to destroy me multiple times but you never could. I’m just damaged. But I always come back. You only damage yourself now. Because I will stop caring. You’re actions your decisions. You know the only reason I care is when they affect me. I can’t fight you anymore, so I will flee before you kill me. That’s who I am. 


A true king would hold his head high and treat you the way I used to. It’s you’re own complicated headcase that is the only reason that we aren’t together. It’s just gotten worse over time and I am hurting.


But I am also a prideful man, and I don’t back down to anyone the least of all you. I’ll take a crown of thorns and be the fucking villain and sit on an iron throne before I’d ever let you continue to act the way you have without responsibilities in your life. It’s time to grow up. Just like I had to. The fucking hard way. Before it slaps you in the face. 


Agian. 


I’m done pretending I’m anything but a good and honourable man. Even bad kings had good souls once. Just because I am the foundation of you’re entire life doesn’t mean it won’t crumble into stone one day, I just hope we find our moment first.


I am getting frustrated by the hot and cold and I know it’s your own emotional turmoil in you’re head. And that you’re not ready to grow up and face reality just yet. I just try to be patient and wait for the right moment but the right moment is running out of time. 


One day I will decide to completely walk away and be done with it. I’m standing still in my life for other reasons and responsibilities that don’t include you. But it’s getting harder and harder to stand still and face those responsibilities as well. I have no back up in this world and there are other options out there and other places I could be.


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