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An American Prayer


Sometimes as long as one is focused one can turn ones fortunes around easily... of course it doesn't hurt when one get's angry and focuses that in a positive manner as well... as long as I continue to look forward and stop letting the world behind me get me down i'll be fine, of course I'm not exactly going to let myself rest on my laurels now that i'm back to work, time for the job search to continue and some of my new goals in my life need to get me to where i want, i shouldn't just be happy at the plateau, i should be aiming higher, and not just limiting myself, yes i want to write a book about my experiences in my life and in my feild all 25 years of it, but i also want to maybe get something happening musically agian, and i should start transcribing my poetry books into a computer and get them either to my freinds to be turned into songs or write my own poetry book or spoken word album like an american prayer. i need to stop pretending like there's nothing out there for me to achive and start having the goals i have locked away with the skeletons in my closet come out and play agian,

Current mood: Determined.
Current Music: Offspring, The Kids Aren't Alright
you are young beuatiful, and full of life - people should pay you to hang out with them because their lives are so dull. Live by it and you can have an absurd existence too....

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