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The System has Failed III


nothing like watching the posion politics of laziness that has infected the other house in our organization start to affect this new house, I don't like being blamed for someone in the morning failing to do a bedcheck after 8 am that's not my fucking problem, you want me to make sure that the kids are asleep in the morning in their own rooms after shift change and i've left you should have me there until the kids wake the fuck up... and if you want me to be doing periodicall bed checks every 30 minutes you better be paying a lot fucking more than mininum wage which what i was making last febuary slamming subs together, and it's so much fun rescheduling my weekend with my son to accomadate a friday night shift that you take away from me at the last minute... the lack of any idea of scheulding till the last minute and the lack of contuinity of care is once agian bothering me, when I am more finaccaly secure on Ei than working there is something to be said about the way the system works and how fucking broken it is..... and it becoming painfully evident how much we are just warehousing the kids until the can grow up to be societies little drones and/or convicts.

Current Mood: Aggravated.
Current Music: Burn in Hell, Twisted Sister.
I know what I want, I say what I want ,And no one can take it away.

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