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Angry Chair.


of course you can always give someone a fucking exact date and end up ignored, i would not be fucking surprised if someone is on vacation and just forgot to tell me. it's not like i matter and/or rank in that little boy's life, I'm disposable.. this much is becoming evident.... the only one sorrow i have on going back to work is the fact that i have to deal with the fact that I may have to to take a backstep in involvement in my son's life, of course I am still considering the fact that i may be able to find something In niagara before the end of the summer, time to Start pushin and hard. I'm sick of being dependent on the insane ones thoughts and whims... at least in niagara i would be able to extert some more influnence instead of being invisible except by telephone 10 out of every 14 days. whatever.. it's what she chose for me... i'm only a sperm donor anyways.

Current mood: Angry.

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