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When Love And Death Embrace


The expected political fireworks have not yet happened but the lack of trust and the fact that you are a pathetic person that places yourself above all over is very evident as one tiptoes thru your pages, All i see is a dark place in which you choose to live your life and be the person you think that you have to be, at least when it comes to me, I am exactly Who i set out to be, who i wanted to be, and I don't answer to anyone, question my life choices or seek out happiness, I have these things.. family, freinds they come to me, I don't abandon them and isolate myself for the next cute girl, and that's the fundemantal diffrence between you and us... Of course I'm a lot less materialistic than you are as well, I may hold onto to things but that way i don't have to replace things that are bought at expenisive prices... but then agian that's another way that things are diffrent between us... I just want to to save the world... you want the world to save, no that's not right, you want the world to Spoil you.

Current Mood: Agrravated.
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