When Love And Death Embrace

The expected political fireworks have not yet happened but the lack of trust and the fact that you are a pathetic person that places yourself above all over is very evident as one tiptoes thru your pages, All i see is a dark place in which you choose to live your life and be the person you think that you have to be, at least when it comes to me, I am exactly Who i set out to be, who i wanted to be, and I don't answer to anyone, question my life choices or seek out happiness, I have these things.. family, freinds they come to me, I don't abandon them and isolate myself for the next cute girl, and that's the fundemantal diffrence between you and us... Of course I'm a lot less materialistic than you are as well, I may hold onto to things but that way i don't have to replace things that are bought at expenisive prices... but then agian that's another way that things are diffrent between us... I just want to to save the world... you want the world to save, no that's not right, you want the world to Spoil you.

Current Mood: Agrravated.
And I all I taught her was everything

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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