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Hellraiser


I don' sit around and let other people control my life finacally annd wonder why i was moved around like a pawn and a chess peice and feel sorry for myself, by 9:30 am this fucking morning I had my answers and am still only butting heads with the goverment but not with my employer with this issue... it's fucking stupid, it's not like I'm sitting around like a junkie collecting a cheque, of course i let that fucking cunt today know that as a disabled citizen that's employed I am more than entitled to disabilty from the goverment and if they want to put roadblocks in my way when i'm trying to once agian be self sufficent like i have been for the past 2 years except for the last few months that I Can and will ask for the paperwork for long term disabilty to be followed thru. But of course this is what you get with buercrats, and then there's the whole lack of respect thing, don't treat everyone like peons.. sometimes there smarter than you, i love how ontario works idiots think they are so smart, they don't like having clients with university and college behind them we know how to write letters and talk to our duly elected politicians. sometimes it helps to be smarter than an Ow worker just out of mohawk college. helps even more that I used to administer Ontario works shelter forms, nothing like having a beurcrat have to double check legalistaion you know in your head becuase they are unsure of exactly how that works, but i'm smart I read....

Current Mood: Pissed.
And now they're sayin I'm in trouble with the government - I'm lovin it!

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