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Anger Inc.

I am Angry about the current situations in my life... This is not how things are fucking supposed to be... I am less than enthused by the attempt to be forced out at home without any real notice... I will leave as soon as soon as i find something safe and acceptable but I am quite frustrated over the fact that the past year i have sacrificed so much just to keep that roof over my head and I got fucked over.. I understand the situation and my heart even hurts for them but my own heart is hurting for reasons much more important than them and in this game of chaos choices that will eventually affect him come first..I am trying to do the best I can but being woken up early morning when you know i haven't been sleeping isn't fucking impressive to ones willingness to leave peacefully and as soon as possible.. I have a lot of frustrations in my life and the truth is the fact that I can't realistically go anywhere for a few weeks is one of them... it is something that needs to be discussed further but at this time i am making a choice of whether or not to stay in this city or leave and go elsewhere and While i know there are choices there is also the fact that Windsor, Brantford and Niagara are all options, If I leave this time I will not return. I'm not sure where to go or what to do and the fact that the rest of my life is in a equal set of turmoils and ambiguity does not help... I can't help but be angry.. but i can use that anger to bring about positive change and not just make rash and immediate decisions based on how much i'm hurting.


Current Mood: Angry
Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.

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