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The Devil's Favorite Demon II

It's going to be a fun for me tonight as once agian For my birthday WWE rolls into town and I have my sister to thank for getting me tickets.. there is a void however... I have really nice seats and they are front row but i would be just as fucking happy sitting in nosebleeds with my little person watching the show... I have had the opportunity to share the WWE experience with him only once 2 years ago.. this is a Saturday show, there is no reason except selfishness that he is not here this weekend and we are not going to this show. I am happy to be going to the show but deep inside in my heart, it's just not going to be the same without my little person, He should be here... this is another interesting thing, another memory that only i can give him, that has been taken away.. I know that their will be more but the waiting... the waiting is so damn hard...

Current Mood: Sad.
"Let not your happiness be defined by what is given to you. For all that is given can be taken away." -Peter Steele-

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