I am Focused and Angry, I know that I should be using the current situation as a focused catylyst for Change, but the reality is I am frustrated and at this point in my life i tought things were secure enough that I didn't need to be looking for yet another place... I always end up feeling Homeless and fearing being Homeless when I am looking for an apartment I have options but some of them aren't nessicarly the best choices for me at the current time.. I am to the point where i am just so goddamned frustrated I don't know what the next step is going to be.. It's just a matter of making a decision and running with it. I can't see the future and I can't feel anything good coming up for me.. all i seem to do is run into brick walls.. I can survive anything but i am getting frustrated with the fact that I constantly have forks in the road and wonder if i ever made the right decision leaving Windsor and being a dad, One of the few things i actually had in Windsor was security...I lived in the same area for 5 years... I have actually thought about that a lot lately.. there are options in thorold, welland, Windsor and brantford but I don't know what the endgame is... I can't see it that clearly... I am just frustrated by the fact that this is not how things should be...I shouldn't be making decisions based on whatever the next step is going to be because i am fucking unclear of exactly what the next step will be.
Current Mood: Frustrated.
To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles
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