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Hellfire.

While I am currently In a holding pattern and have to wait on the next chess move, I am confident that whatever becomes the next reality of my life that I will be able to endure it... It's probably time for me to move on a deal with the reality of the fact that i may have to scorch my earth and walk away from a lot of things i hold dear for vindication and to clear my name.. but it's not about me... it's never been about me... i have no illusions anymore... I just want to go back to a normal fucking life instead of just waiting on the next step... I'm sick of the fighting, Sick of battles and sick of waiting... I was made strong, but i was made for better things than this... I'm sick of just waiting and waiting... it's not about me... it's about him... and the more i think about it.. i despise the fact that the knife has once again been placed in my back.

Current mood: Angry.
If I had believed in a God of rewards and punishments, I might have lost courage in battle....

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