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Emerald Twilight

I am about to change my life in a dozen diffrent ways and the one battle that has to start today and end today is an argument about Housing? Newsflash you're the one with marital problems not me.. I've dealt with mine without involving you.. I am sick of trying to hold a fragile peace rather than just being defeated by someone attempting to intimidate me... I had to lose a little bit of control and show my temper today to show that meant buisness and get some resoltion... At this moment and time being homeless is not an option.. giving someone money i dont have is not an option.. I need this person for a bigger battle but I am not going to sacrifice the shit storm that is my life to just move on to make things conivent for someone else's situation... thankfully it has been resolved peacefully.. and I have good news and positive things to look forward to in the coming days even if i do have a storm to continue to ride the wave of... No fear... Nothing but the determiniation in my heart and soul to get me there.. the only distraction that remains will soon be eliminated and I can focus all my energies on fighting this final battle... Hopefully once agian i will find safety and security in this new place but honestly sometimes choas and turmoil help to keep me focused, having desperation and a hunger in my belly sometimes helps with the upcoming battles and dealing with adversity...

Current Mood: Anger.
We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated.


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