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This Is War II

Another delay but this time it's for a purpose, however I am sick of the fucking games involved... but it is better to be represented but not... it's a completely different animal involved in terms of everything that is going on when I have to deal with them alone.. Of course I don't think that will be an issue soon, i have a month and i have a couple of options in terms of who i can deal with.. and I have some ammunition in my bullets right now that helps the case... I just don't trust them, this is a battle and a war.. and I will not be some matyr strung up like a puppet... only i control the destiny that I don't believe in... it's time to function and move things forward... every chess piece in action, every variable i can control i will control... it's about action it's not about waiting and hoping that situation will change, the more information i get and the more i can do about the situation the better off i will be.. I can somehow see a light and that light is coming closer, but the fog of war still permanates... time to smash through it.. and deal with the darkness.

Current Mood: Determined.
Revenge is a confession of pain.

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