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Chaos War...

While some things in my life are coming together some other things in my life are still falling apart.. my current and basic attitude right now is let's just deal with what I have to and then I will figure out the rest but I am frustrated dealing with fucking people and their politics when it comes to looking for a safe place for me to stay, I have never had these difficulties finding a place before and ridiculous the depths i have to suffer just to be able to move into something fucking safe for me and my child... I have seriously considered packing it all up and going to Windsor, at this point I have had my fill of Hamilton and the surrounding areas.. I have almost considered making a phone call to Welland and going to a place where i once felt safe and secure and it was without her influence at all... i know that's just nostalgia talking but it could work, anything beats being homeless and aimlessly drifting and not knowing where the next move will be.. I should have more options in my life and I do not and one of the reasons for that has everything to do with her.. but Unlike her I am a survivor and I will endure... it's about survival and it's about doing the right thing and dealing with whatever happens in my life. I will emerge from all of this a stronger and more determined man.


Current Mood: Frustrated.
Those who plot the destruction of others often perish in the attempt.

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