Looking Back in Anger II.

The chaos to this move is almost over and the next step is around the corner, But i cannot say i am happy due to the current turn of events... threats and intimidation are never a way to deal with me, I may not react but i will let it simmer...i will remeber it... it's bullshit how things turned out and while i understand her reasons i also find them unfair and unjust, i should have had till the end of the month but of course games have been played in terms of them for some time.. i had an option to make a full exit when i was on vacation back in July the reality is that is probaly when i should have made a decision to exit and do something else with my life.. at this point i just feel lost and angry.... I can see where some of the issues started and i can see the fact that some of the issues would have been dealt with by me making a final exit in the summer... now i venture on into the great unknown due to someone else's issues and lack of respect of tenant rights or basic human respect... I don't trust anyone anymore.. nothing like wasting three years into making a house a home to have a knife in the back...

Current Mood: Anger.
No man can think clearly when his fists are
clenched.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no lon...

Serpent's Kiss.

I pass in and out of peoples lives. sometimes i wonder why they come back. sometimes i wonder if the issue is me. i do grand things and i back up my plans and words and maybe sometimes thats too much for some. but all i have ever asked from those that i love is honesty. i don't care if things fall apart. all i need is the truth. I'm getting to the point i don't trust fucking anyone. and being betrayed by those that are at best fairweather fucking friends when im not exactly finacally fucking stable. there are reasons i keep my circle small and those i truly trust even closer. it takes a lot to be a part of my life and and i am seriously considering withdrawing from some of my social activities again because it seems like the last couple years they just turn to shit and all i am doing is losing money. i have stopped caring about a lot of people in the past and it can be real fuckin easy for me to walk away from agian. id rather work on the relationships both old and new th...

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