Looking Back in Anger...

I am angry, and however it may be focused it is splintered and Threats and Intimidation do not work agianst me.. the more I think about things and the Direct threat i was given today the more than anger and the rage rages within my soul.. I have a real fucking battle to fight and to deal with and petty nonsense about leaving on someone's timetable is bullshit.. I've been a good person and a good tenant.. I'm more than a little fed up with given a deadline... I am on a limited income what part of that don't you understand I have asked you for nothing and i have had to deal with sleezebags and scam artists for the last month just looking for something safe for my child.. I'm sorry i can't get my shit together on your pretty little timetable... I am making a safety net plan to deal with the next step, and I have decided to begone to a freinds or somewhere maybe even windsor on the 15th even if everything get's hauled away to storage for the moment.. i am having a real hard time dealing with yet another person i trust making threats agianst me.. I am in the middle of a war for my life, my wellbeing and two souls... It is not my fault i am on a limited income and it's not my fault about anything involving your interpersonal situation.. I have my own battles to fight and I have every right to be angry... I thought this emotion would subside but it has not at this point I am going to do what it takes to protect myself.

Current Mood: Angry.
Nothing frightens me. I am fear.

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Cowabunga.

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