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Emotional Vampires.

I am sick of dealing with two faced and illusory people in this fucking city... I need something and I need to deal with it now.. this is the worse hell I have ever been thru in a while, not knowing exactly where I'm going to be living in the next little while and having money in my pocket to deal with it but feeling like I'm Standing Fucking still...I need to keep going on with my life.. I need to fix a few things in my life but as long as I have distraction and am dealing with scam artists and slumlords that won't happen.. Windsor Is being very seriously considered, i have a home there and it's safe.. and I have options.. Only one thing holds me back and I wonder some days if the sacrifice will be completely worth it. But i have to hold onto Hope that it will be.. I am thinking in terms of friends as well I may end up being more selective in terms of the next move... I am sick of people In my life just being hanger's on and only being fair weather friends that agree to come help and then dissapear into wisps of air when I actually need them for something...
but that's life for ya... It's a Bitch.

Current Mood: Annoyed.
Choose what is right, not what is easy.

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