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I am Fucked, I have Nowhere to go and I have responsibilities here that can't be ignored esp. with the changing of the tide in terms of the next chess move.. everything is changing and being out on the streets with No supports is not a fucking option... I am fed up with the fact that someone's stupid little chess game is why I don't have options and this is a need to remove me entirely that has created the situation I am currently in.. I am fucked in terms of my job, my homelife... there's probaly a reason why i think about shiny little bullets every day...when my life is falling apart what is left for me to... I need to get away and at this point a serious consideration is moving back to windsor and saying fuck my entire life down here, not like i really have one... it's been crumbling since 2005, when you break down a man you can really take you time doing so.. and it doesn't help with emotional vampires out there is the housing market... I need something safe not something just to have it.

Current Mood: Angry.
Because what’s worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?

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