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The Condemned...

I am hoping tommorow that I have some good news.. I'm sick of dealing with the nonsense that has become my life... Of course the true reflection is the fact that I am mostly likely going to hear the same old refrain about how the choices I made when I was young affect me again as an adult and that I will likely be fighting another uphill battle for yet another year or so.. and Who benefits? Only one person with her masterstroke of the system, this is why you can't ever trust or let anyone in... you have to stand alone because the minute someone knows your intimate secrets one day they can and will use them to destroy you... It's too bad I'm already destroyed and standing In the ashes of Hell.. there isn't much farther down I can fall.. and you can't break me... nor can you kill me... so why bother trying... this is a battle and war and I am far from finished with it... The only way this will ever end is with absolution and vindication or my dying breath.

Current Mood: Depressed.
Violence is the last refuge of the incompetent.

A child stolen is a hope lost.

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