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All or Nothing....

You don't turn your back on family, even when they do.

That's the way it has to be with you... For a long time we have both chose nothing...I think that needs to change.

Every thing I do is planned and calculated. Often long in advance, you are the only xfactor that affects that at this point in my fucking life. You enter it and turn my life and emotions upside down. 

The thing that bothers me the most is that I have always tried to do the right thing by you even to the detriment of myself, my life and my freedom. But none of that matters to you long term, it just makes me sad.

I have nothing left to prove to you. You know exactly where I stand. Something's have changed recently for us and one day I will tell you what that is. It's important and might make us eventually make sense. But I'm not going to wait around to be you're back up. I have my own life to live. I'm happy with it for the moment. The only thing missing is you and him, I hope you know that.

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