This is still a game of many tactical moves,but for once I'm not playing to defeat you. I just want you on my side against the world agian. The way it's supposed to be, the way it should have been.
For once I have Hope, it's all I need to sustain me right now with my next big chess move. I have no expectations but you have surprised me in the past. So I'm going to go forward with the things I plan to do and see where we end up. You are important to me, you always will be. If this is where we end the game no matter what the outcome is, I'm good with it.
I think in the next little while we will surprise each other, even if I am forcing my hand and putting all the cards on the table rather than bottling them up and ignoring how I have always felt for you. From the most intense passion comes the best and worst of us, I completely understand that now. If we didn't love each other as whirlwind as we did we would not have fought as hard as we did, but the time for that is over. It's time to move forward. With it without each other. But I will never stop fighting or trying to be together....that's all I've ever wanted. I wished one day you'd listen.
This game is entirely different when I am trying to play it with you in a positive manner rather than against you. Im just trying to anticipate the best way to do the right thing now and hope it clicks. I hated fighting you with every fiber of my being, I had to tear out a piece of my soul just to do it, I felt this year I got some of that back,but you are always gonna be the missing piece of my soul.
Never forget who taught you how to play chess. I just taught you a little too well.
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