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....Cause 10 years is forever and You Haven't grown up yet.



Estranged

1.to remove, as from usual surroundings or associates; keep apart or away

2.to turn (a person) from an affectionate or friendly attitude to an indifferent, unfriendly, or hostile one; alienate the affections of

I'm a little less pissed off today than i was yesterday after spending a night inside my own head thinking about everything, at least when i see things clearly i can somewhat understand the games you play, the biggest issue is the times you choose to play them, i'm already having a rough time with the fucking bullshit at work and of course you go and start tinkering with his little head so you can play him agianst daddy, we discussed this on the telephone, he's gonna try to play you agianst me and vice versa but you don't help things by trying to get him all emotionally confused and not explanining things to him, if I'm out of work, if i don't have moeny for a toy, if i have to or can't explain something to him all I give him is the truth not bullshit fairytales about something that's never gonna happen, do you understand how much you are screwing him up inside, do you even care? Of course not, it's still all about you, we are merely possesions to be played with and eventually thrown away... when the fuck will you ever grow up? Will it be this century?

Current Mood: Depressed.
All good qualities in a child are the result of environment, while all the bad ones are the result of poor heredity on the side of the other parent

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