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Fade to Black


Nothing like wearing my blue and black suit clothes in the middle of a lightning storm immediately after a job interview. i have a good feeling about this one, because it is close to the house and exactly what i have been doing for the last year... in comparison to where I am currently working it looks a lot less fucking Mickey mouse too.... the diffrences in the interview process where phenominal, i mean it's less about about need at this job and more about the right person for the job, i don't think i'd end up feeling like a fucking programmable drone that it used up and thrown away at this job. They asked me what my long term term goal was, and that was permanence in my feild somewhere.. i already acheived my short term goal, that was working at a group home with special needs kids for the last year.... it's too bad that's ending badly.. but at least i have found alternatives and ways to protect myself should/when/if the shit totally hits the fan instead of waiting on a slow burn of nothingness.

Current Mood:Optimistic.
He who despairs over an event is a coward, but he who holds hope for the human condition is a fool.

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