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Dreams and Demons.


Keeping the faith is getting a little easier to swallow due to the fact i have three job interviews scheduled this week and one will be working with a good freind at the cadbury plant. eating candy all shift? i couldn't complain... there are things in this world that refuse to fucking make sense and getting laid off is one of those ridiculous things that have to happen at the worst times in my life, of course one of the values of not giving a shit is the fact that I don't care... realistcally as long as my son and I are provided for and have a fucking roof over our heads, the rest of the world can kiss my ass, there's nothing i can do to slow down the marching of time so i don't even bother to fucking try... sorry if that sounds mercanry but to be honest i don't really give a shit.. there are a million reasons why I don't trust anyone outside of my little boy and My sister in this world and typical human behavior esp. employers in my feild have always proven me right, so why the hell should i give a damn?

Trust Nobody.

Current Mood: Pissed off.
Without trust, words become the hollow sound of a wooden gong. With trust, words become life itself.

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