Dreams and Demons.

Keeping the faith is getting a little easier to swallow due to the fact i have three job interviews scheduled this week and one will be working with a good freind at the cadbury plant. eating candy all shift? i couldn't complain... there are things in this world that refuse to fucking make sense and getting laid off is one of those ridiculous things that have to happen at the worst times in my life, of course one of the values of not giving a shit is the fact that I don't care... realistcally as long as my son and I are provided for and have a fucking roof over our heads, the rest of the world can kiss my ass, there's nothing i can do to slow down the marching of time so i don't even bother to fucking try... sorry if that sounds mercanry but to be honest i don't really give a shit.. there are a million reasons why I don't trust anyone outside of my little boy and My sister in this world and typical human behavior esp. employers in my feild have always proven me right, so why the hell should i give a damn?

Trust Nobody.

Current Mood: Pissed off.
Without trust, words become the hollow sound of a wooden gong. With trust, words become life itself.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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