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Poor II.


Nothing like arguing with a goddamn bureaucrat that has been blocking any possibilities of career advancement for the last year on Friday morning, because she made a mistake and then went and wasted my time by having me come to a meeting at 9 am, I'm a midnight shift worker 99% of the time, therefor i am nocturnal.. having me show up at that hour is a huge pain in my ass, and to show up for nothing, it shows how little the government cares about the working poor in this country when their civic servants waste the time of employed people yet just distribute hand outs to people that aren't looking for employment or popping out six thousand kids... i think I'd be better off on social assistance alone right now than trying to remain gainfully employed but of course i wasn't put together that way.. it's going to be a long summer.. some hard decisions are ahead.. i need to make a choice if I'm going to stay in Hamilton or move on.. it's been two years here.. that's about par for the course... i just have to decide the next step, to stay here with the job, find something in Niagara or return to Windsor where there's a chance I'll be happier and yet more miserable.... we will see..

Current Mood: Conflicted.
Socialism is workable only in heaven where it isn't needed, and in hell where they've got it

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