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Nothing like trying to do homework for the university course i'm taking and having an antiquated peice of junk that i can't even download a fucking lesson plan on.. I'm frustrated and it's not just the course.. behaviors at work keep getting worse and worse and there is no direction, if the kids don't have fucking rules how are we expected to enforce anything, one of these days i gotta figure something out and move on, at least at this house i have supportive staff that are capable of seeing things with clear eyes instead of being so indoctrinated to the bullshit that they are just holding on like me because it's a job, it's time to let the year finish out and have new goals for next year.... speaking of goals, i at least dealt with the big issues swimming around in my head and we will work on things and i don't think that it's as big an issue as it once was.... we spoke, we will watch for behaviors but hopefully she understands my concerns.

Current Mood: Tired.
Being a writer is like having homework every night for the rest of your life.

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