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3 am.

Quitting my job, just havent decided on the right day, feels like im just treading fucking water with the house, nothing like being blasted for minor details in the house cleanup when ive been the glue thats been holding the place together all fucking week because the boss was on fucking vacation, but of course that doesnt matter, im gonna get blasted for others mistakes and the fact that the bathroom was messy, did i mention i dont use the upstairs head... and a fucking razor was left in said bathroom, don't i feel safe working an overnight shift... of course i set myself up for failure when i give these kids anything they take a mile... screaming at 3 am, it was interesting to see my boss talking about routine and rules at this late stage of anarchy, I know you are attempting to change things but it's a case of too little too late at this point, these kids are used to walking all over staff... and its an environment you created.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.

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