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Fear.

You know its very frustating to be constantly told to deal with issues that should never have arisen in the first place but because of lax policies and procedures they are still continuing to happen, but then agian lets threaten my job if im not the cookie cutter clone who is going to take it on myself to create issues at night and then spend the night dealing with them, NO I'm not going to let the kids smoke at night, nor should they be smoking at any time.. they shouldnt be smoking period, however i should not become the bad guy for refusing to give them cigarettes, even with one hand your saying let them smoke and on the other hand telling me i should be discouraging the habit and making sure they dont ask me for smokes, Newsflash asshole... I dont have enough money to buy myself cigs much less give these kids cigarettes, you need to look elsewhere for whoevers facilitating there nicotine habit because it's not me, there's nothing like turning into an asshole strict staff but to cover my own ass and to keep a job i dont even want anymore i have to turn into something i dont want to be, fuck it, i'll find something new.

Current Mood: Frustrated
There's a lot of people who, a cigarette is about the only vacation they have.

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