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Full Circle.

Sometimes its interesting where life takes you, its funny where you end up and where your comfortability zone becomes, it was a great weekend and i cant belive how happy i am right now, its so great when i have my little extended family here and the rest of the world is a complete other reality, it shows me how things could be, and might be one day, so happy with the way the world is right now and there is nothing that could bring me down, its awesome, i really feel i am coming full circle with my life and where i am going with it, as i said to her today, i love my carreer but my job sucks and maybe its time to persue kitchner wareloo seeing how its just as close to my son as this city is and theres an option to share a house there, its a possibilty, i may be comfortable here and i love being exactly where i am in terms of the neighboorhood i have and what it offers, this city is unhealthy for me, as is my job.. but when we are around those two magical girls i feel a lot more positive and maybe we need to move towards that direction for every weekend and holiday... i dont know, i love em both very much, and it doesnt matter what happens, because im always gonna be there regardless...family isnt always the people you were born with. missing you guys already.Im so glad they had a good little visit with Rango and Disney. Kinda cathartic giving you my books of poetry dating back the last ten years, ive been holding on them forever and id rather that a person that understands me heart and soul has them so you know what my experinces have been, and where ive gone, kinda gives me the drive to start writing some poetry agian, i have really good warm feelings inside me right now and im not used to that, sometimes you gotta go home to come full circle and start over agian, but i really feel certian things in this life are exactly as they should be, and the longer those relationships are fostered and improved upon our lives can only get better and the kids can only get closer.

Current Mood: Happy.
I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich.

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