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Man That You Fear

Its pretty fucking obvious how much you avoid the intrusion of me into my childs life, I was always the darker side of the coin, and you could never have tamed me, maybe the fact that your delusions are the only things keeping you sane is the reason you have to keep me at a lot more than arms length, but you keep playing thse games with our childs mind and one day he is going to reject you outright, having him ask today if I would move back to Niagara and deal with his bully and move back in with mommy almost made me cry, i wonder what exactly it is about me that makes you hate me so.. and what you tell tell my wonderful innocent little man about me that has him asking those kind of questions. we arent so diffrent from each other you know, the diffrence between me and you is that I embrace the fact of who I am and what im capable of.

Current Mood: Sad
Most American children suffer too much mother and too little father.

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