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Two-Face

Not sure who i am more pissed off at right now, my boss or my ex, both are two faced liars who delight in manipulation, nothing like finding out i was removed from she who shall not be named freinds list when i notice a message from her on facebook, i never wanted her having any insight into my personal life anyways it was just fucking convenient to have her on their to communicate about my son, of course the new boyfreind takes proiorty and he got jealous...see if i care..... i have bigger issues to do deal with, like the lack of care and consitenty at work with no routine and no rules, its like the village of the damned, nothing like the whole household being woken up at 3 am by a kid acting like a screaming banshee just to be an asshole, but theres no effective way to deal with it, except stop giving a shit, i wish it was that easy for me but it isnt. whatever, time to do one more shift and then enjoy my weekend with the kidlets and my very best freind... and other freinds like jack, tequila and mary jane.

Current Mood: Tired.
For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity.

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