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Hurting....


I don't know how to feel right now, one of the people that is so important in my sons life is now gone, thanks to another person in his life.. I am fucking shattered and i have No idea how either Jennifer or My boy feels... Grandma Helen was the only good god damn thing in that fucked up family.. I am here I am not going anywhere, there is nothing right now in my life that i wouldn't drop at a moments notice to be there for both of them... This shit should not have happened this should not be the way that things happen, I am so full of hurt and anger right now and it's not even even directed at anyone...I feel so sad I can't imagine how they feel... why do bad things happen to good people... I worked with the woman, she always accepted me and always tried to continue to make peace between me and you as much as she could, She was always a bridge between us... and I miss her... This should not happen, you will be missed. I don't know what else to say here... anything you need babe, I'm here... I know I've had anger towards you, and that I have left you down, but regardless I am here Standing for you, if you or him ever need me I am here... I will always be here... I promise you that.I don't Know if you can see this, but if you can Know that I am here for you No matter what... for both of you, I feel shattered and I can't imagine How that you feel.

Current Mood: Hurting.
Current Music: Johnny Cash, Hurt.
Everyone I know. Goes away in the end.

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