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Postmortem

Another day and while I am still angry, the truth is that i don't give a fucking shit because it's not important, as i said yesterday there is only one battle worth sitting here living and/or dying for and everything else doesn't fucking matter, the sooner i convince my impulsive mind of that truth and start going with the war machine once again the better my sanity and my self assurance will be, I can't let petty fucking distractions get in the way, but it does show the size of someones character and makes it very fucking easy for me to make certain decisions in regards to the future and me, and my child's safety and what the next step will be. I hold no illusions anymore about anything at this point, Trust and respect are earned not given.

Current Mood: Anger.
Current Music: Slayer - Postmortem
Sometimes, you have to fall from the mountain to realize what you are climbing for. Obstacles were put in our way to see if what we want is worth fighting for. From every wound, there's a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I SURVIVED.

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