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The Fire Rises....

It's time to be proactive and take the battle to the people that need to be dealt with, I've dealt with enough fucking closed doors and two years of hell... I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, it's time for my defeat to become a victory and this game of hell I've been under for so very long to be done... there's only one person who's important at the end of this, and the time for chess games is over... time to deal with what needs to be dealt with, I did not spill my guts to a trusted friend yesterday to stall the situation. it's time for move forward. I've got no problem pouring gasoline and napalm on the already burning bridge that you are parked on... this is a nuclear option that you are afraid of, and it's the only option. No more games... Burn.... there are good places i can find in my past that have and will help me in this journey, Some bridges i never burned and I fought hard to keep some of those relationships... I will use them, I already have.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Adele, Skyfall.
Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win.

Some things are worth fighting for, some are not. If you find something worth the fight, don't just let it go, or you may have to deal with a lifetime of regret!

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