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Amityville III: The Demon


I have too much going on in my fucking life to be dealing with petty bullshit, I have real fucking battles to fight... I am not about to get into it when i bi polar bitch with her own issues is being intimidated by her 18 year old son and his buddies, i'm not about to throw fists and be intimidated, i'll just walk away from that shit... so sick of trying to be a respectable citizen, what did I get for it i'm fighting a fucking uphill battle for the only thing In my life that has ever fucking mattered... I've walked away from everything I've ever had.. over market rent and a lack of respect and privacy, yeah that's not happening. I don't feel safe and it's not a fucking environmental i want my fucking child around, and if she cared about anything more than money neither would she. But i'll tell you this, this isn't a relationship... constant fucking threats and intimidation are not the way to go, esp. when you are dumb enough to throw around the landlord and fucking tenant act, it's a shared domicile it's not an apartment, as you are constantly reminding me... sick of the threats, I have more to deal with and because of your annoying fucking bullshit that is a distraction i haven't being focusing on the fucking things that are important... if it comes down it i'll fucking bail and find a cardboard box to live in, i have enough fucking trouble trying to keep myself stable without fucking housing bullshit, When i found this shithole i was homeless and couch hopping, really considering doing the same again.. there's nothing in this world that matters to me except one thing... it's easy enough to find something else... there is no reason for me to fight battles i can just walk away from, it's time for me to focus on the actual battles that need to be won. I'm not going to lose my temper and my sanity because of immaturity. It stops or i'm fucking gone. i refuse to be intimidated by anyone, I've already had everything taken away does it really matter how far i go down into hell at this point? I can't deal with anything anymore but what needs to be dealt with, I do not have time for anything fucking else. it's about me, and my little boy and this place is currently not an emotionally safe place for any child, especially mine... there's too much manipulation and lies flying around... i'm not going to go to war with anyone over trying to force me out... I'm just gone. trying getting the rent money getting those two retards thinking they own the world. I'm the type to say it as it is and not play games, i'm frustrated and classic enabler behavior of doing everything a child wants explains why your personal situation sucks, i'm sorry tho i'm a fucking adult, I have my own son to raise and i have to find a safe fucking place for him, and if this ain't gonna be it, i'm gone. I have my own battles to fight, i don't need yours as well.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Mood: Eminem, Criminal.
There is more stupidity than hydrogen in the universe, and it has a longer shelf life.

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