There is only one Conflict worth fighting for in my life and everything is immaterial and is not fucking important, i need to just focus on that and exactly what that is... every other battle is a fucking joke and it's just as easy to not bother, all my energies need to go into this one thing, this same battle in one form or another i have been fighting since january 1st 2005, the only thing that matters is that little boys soul... I don't care about anyone else's petty lives or emotions, if i have to move on to provide a safe place for my child so be it, i chose this fucking place for that reason but right now underneath all the anger and emotion there is a deep darkness dwelling where my heart used to be, there is something missing.... i need to fight this battle harder and longer, i will never end it until I die or becomes of age, whichever comes first... but at this point the only thing i have left is hope because my world is too surrounded by the darkness to matter.. it's very clear this is the only thing in my lifethat matters to me and everything is immaterial..I wish some other people would get the fucking hint.. I am not hear for them, i never will be.. you are an acquitance, a landlord, an employer, a person i used to date whatever, you're not important, the only things that matters is family, and being that for him, his Father.
Current Mood: Angry.
When you love someone, it's worth fighting for no matter what the odds.
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